You all recall how one of my goals for 2011 was to get pregnant. We want another baby. I'm personally dying for a baby. Every time someone close to me has a baby and I get to hold that baby and smell the intoxicating smell of a newborn, I start ovulating. Really. I do.
Emma wants a sister.
Noah wants a brother.
I just want a baby. I would like for it to be a girl, because Emma will potentially be 7 when this dreamed for baby would be born and I really want her to have a close relationship with her would be sister. And I know the older she gets, the less likely they'll be really close. Right?
But truly, i just want a healthy baby.
Here's what I'm scared of, though.
I am not one of those lucky girls who gets pregnant and stays all cute and small and just has this little basketball of a belly but still has a thin body.
That. Is. Not. Me.
When I get pregnant, my butt is pregnant, my face is pregnant, my thighs are pregnant.
Case in point.
This is what I looked like.... like THE DAY before I got pregnant with Noah.
Thin me.
This. Is what I looked like at 34 weeks when I had my belly pictures done. This is not my favorite one, I am obviously huge, but I love that Emma's loving me. And she looks so tiny. She'd better watch out, that mama looks like she might eat her!
This is my favorite one. The angle makes me look not so large. haha :)
And this, friends, is the fatness that was me the day Noah was born. Holy fat cow. I can't believe I am putting this on my blog for the world to see. I look twice the size of Tony. My face was so swollen it was a chore to smile. Geez.
I didn't care, though. I was so in love with that boy and you can see Emma's pure joy over her new brother.
The only consolation in this whole "Candace doubles in size during pregnancy" thing is that this was just four weeks later and I had already lost the majority of the weight.
And isn't this precious? This was his first trip to the beach when him was just 4 weeks old. Excuse Emma, she was too busy eating cheetos to care too much about looking at the camera.
Oh, I love that boy and that girl.
I nursed him sitting right there in my beach chair and no one ever knew the difference. It's so easy to nurse in a bathing suit. Did you know that??
The bad thing is though, that I've not lost ALL my weight from having Noah. I just haven't been diligent about it like I was after I had Emma. I've had too much going on this time.
After Emma, I had lost almost all the weight and was teaching Pilates at the gym again by the time she was 3 months old. After Noah, though, I started doing photography and learning and cramming and getting my editing style down and for those of you who aren't familiar with that, that requires a lot of computer time. On. Your. Butt.
So, I'm so scared of getting pregnant, because I know I it would be best if I lost a few pounds before it happened, yet I want to sooo much!
This time, I need to only gain like 30-40 lbs. MAX.
Do you know how hard that will be for me?
Very, very hard.
You know what, though? This right here... makes it all worth it.
I swear, me and Tony make the prettiest babies ever born. I know you all will wholeheartedly agree. ;)
12 comments:
GIRL--you are GORGEOUS, regardless! We ALL are puffy in the hospital after having a baby! So that picture doesn't count! The rest, GORGEOUS! HELLO! I know the weight struggle--especially since I never lost the weight from ANY of them and it just added on top--but you still have a little bit of time and can have a healthy pregnancy by just changing even a FEW eating habits--seriously, that is the reason I only gained 14 pounds this pregnancy--cutting out my late night eating and constant snacking helped SO MUCH.
But I didn't come here to talk about healthy eating...came here to tell you that you are beautiful and make GORGEOUS babies and that I can't wait for you to have another one. soon. :)
oh my goodness, you pretty girl who makes beautiful babies, just do it!
i know what you mean though, Belle was only 1yr old when i got pregnant with Presley, i was SO not back to where i wanted to be yet. Just walk girl, i walked and walked and walked and i am STILL trying to get all the baby weight off 16 mo later, but i didn't gain over 35-40lbs. and i HAD to snack or i'd feel sick, so my suggestion is to just walk, you can always walk wherever, whenever.
and we need to give ourselves a break as women, not all of us can fit into skinny jeans with no muffin top a couple months after giving birth, however long of time it takes is well worth it. you're a fabulous mother and Tony loves you how you are and so do your children. GET KNOCKED UP ALREADY!! ;D
If you have twins can I have one? That post-baby bloated face is classic!! The first time my brother saw me after I had Cole he walked in and said, "Holy crap!! You're face is soooo swollen!!!". Thanks, brother. Baby's are contagious.
I vote you should have b/g twins. :D
Get-er-done
With my first pregnancy- I gained 50
2nd pregnancy- I gained 20
Twin pregnancy- I gained 20.
I think it helps that you are so busy chasing after kids you don't have time to sit and munch munch 24/7.
And hey... Chipmunk cheeked Candace is also adorable. (
(and yes... aside from my own, you do make the prettiest babies ever. I want to eat them up. Yum.)
I. want. my. baby. now.
You, sheesh, need to give yourself a break. Welcome to the world of REAL women, who actually GAIN weight to have a baby. We all have the puffy hospital picture, they're our medals of honor for accomplishing somthing huge out of something so tiny. ;) I'm right in line here... and I SO know it's gonna happen, and I SO dread it, but look at that sweet baby! I can just feel his ohsosoft hair on my cheek and smell that yummy nursed baby smell. *sigh* You're an amazing mommy. I'm with your friends up there, get that man home and GET TO IT!
You and TOny do make beautiful babies, but like I have told you before, you are so beautiful! Even when you are big and pregnant!!!! That makes you even more beautiful! Just go make babies!!!
you're hilarious! and gorgeous, i might add - you look so happy with your beautifu kids. not to fear, i'm working on a way to run on the treadmill while editing in photoshop. some coordination required and you might end up with some funny looking layers at first, but you'll get the hang of it.;)
You look beautiful before, during and after pregnancy! Pregnancy is such a blessing...a little envy of mine. Haha I totALLY know exactly how you feel, on wanting a baby. My husband and I want one so bad! But we know God will bless us soon! It is just so lovely seeing your pix though, seeing life being created and growing! {I am sorry, hope I don't sound like a creep! Best of luck to you and hubby!
Your pictures didn't prove anything. :) I think you look gorgeous pregnant. I hope you can bring another one of those adorable babies into the world soon!!
You need to stop it! You are still just as beautiful as you were in school. All of your pictures are very gorgeous & special. Never doubt that.
The one tip I will give you is remember to take care of yourself. It is so easy to get wrapped up into taking care of everyone else. This I know all to well. When I had my last one I was at a good weight 128. But as they got older, I just forgot about myself. That is when I put on my weight. So just always know that your important to take of & other things can wait.
ok u CANT go by what u looekd like at the hospital. people don't look right when they're about to deliver. uhmm. you KNOW this. u say me candace. FREAKISHLY HUGE.
and in the other pics, you look AWESOME. i don't see the hugenous anywhere but ur belly. u still look perfect to me. so get over that. u need another beautiful baby!!!!
um seriously... you are one of the most GORGEOUS women in the universe-- seriously!
and i agree, you guys make some dang freaking cute babies!!!!!
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