So much is going on...
In my head
In my heart
In my world
I need a break.
Seriously.
I'm about to turn 31 and I still feel like I am treated like a child by some.
I remember when I WAS a child.
The adults in my world were actually treated as such.
I never saw one being reprimanded by a parent or elderly family member as if they were still expected to abide by their rules.
There are some days when I would gladly return to my childhood years, but only for great benefits such as....
no bills to pay
no house to be responsible for
no people to be responsible for
nothing to really worry about except what I was going to gossip with my girlfriends about the next day...
But for the most part, I am extremely happy that I am grown.
And while I do love living by my family, there is so much pressure to be "perfect".
Unfortunately, I am not perfect and really... I have no desire to be perfect.
I know I make mistakes.
I know I make decisions that not everyone agrees with.
But they're my mistakes to make, my decisions to make, and my life to live.
I'm positive that as a child, I witnessed many, many, many things that if I were to do those very same things today, I would be judged and get a tongue lashing like no other.
But oddly enough, those adults never got tongue lashings, they were allowed to do what they wanted with their lives because... they were ADULTS.
Anyway, I just feel so spent.
And this was a venting blog...
Sorry if it bored you outta your mind, sometimes... a girl just has to vent.
In my head
In my heart
In my world
I need a break.
Seriously.
I'm about to turn 31 and I still feel like I am treated like a child by some.
I remember when I WAS a child.
The adults in my world were actually treated as such.
I never saw one being reprimanded by a parent or elderly family member as if they were still expected to abide by their rules.
There are some days when I would gladly return to my childhood years, but only for great benefits such as....
no bills to pay
no house to be responsible for
no people to be responsible for
nothing to really worry about except what I was going to gossip with my girlfriends about the next day...
But for the most part, I am extremely happy that I am grown.
And while I do love living by my family, there is so much pressure to be "perfect".
Unfortunately, I am not perfect and really... I have no desire to be perfect.
I know I make mistakes.
I know I make decisions that not everyone agrees with.
But they're my mistakes to make, my decisions to make, and my life to live.
I'm positive that as a child, I witnessed many, many, many things that if I were to do those very same things today, I would be judged and get a tongue lashing like no other.
But oddly enough, those adults never got tongue lashings, they were allowed to do what they wanted with their lives because... they were ADULTS.
Anyway, I just feel so spent.
And this was a venting blog...
Sorry if it bored you outta your mind, sometimes... a girl just has to vent.
7 comments:
Hey...just know I am thinking of you. And I have had this very topic on my mind lately. Jenna has been talking nonstop about how she wishes she were an adult...and yes, we are longing for those childhood years...
So much I would trade in... :) Except that I would miss the things that make me want to trade it all in... haha
glad you vented. That's what blogging is about! :) I heard ya...and sometimes that's a nice thing to know :)
I hope everything is better today. Maybe yesterday was just one of those days that we all have and it will all improve today.
ur so reflective. i make me feel like i should quit playin around and grow up. but why? why do we have to grow up? why can't we just play forever?!?!?
I LOVE that you stated that you have no desire to be perfect. It gives you a wonderful opportunity to learn and grow from the choices that you make. I think that's one of the best gifts that our Heavenly Father gave us all- our agency.
He wants us to learn and grow. He wants us to rely on Him to get through those difficult parts (called life.)
These trials and feelings will pass.
Just remember it was worth it for you to go through them if you learned the lessons you needed to.
You're a wonderful person. I am truly enjoying getting to know you. :)
And I missed this post too?!?! I'm so behind!
If people want to treat you like a child, act like a child and put bubblegum in their hair. :)
I hate it when family treats Chris and I like kids. My dad does it most, but I know it's just because I am his little girl and it's out of love. I hope your issues are coming from a place of love as well even though they may bug you!
O Candace how Ive missed ya- Your words spoke so clearly to me- I too have so much going on and your encouragement too NOT be perfect-- JUST what I needed! xo much luv sista blogger!!:D
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