New Year's Resolutions 2010

I've never been one to really make resolutions for the new year. I guess because I know that I'm not great at being disciplined at things like that, but this year was different. The past few weeks I've found my brain being bombarded with thoughts of things that I want to change about myself, my life, my relationships. I don't want to put too much pressure on myself and I'm actually going to record these in a new journal I purchased as well, but I wanted to kind of do an outline here of what I hope to accomplish in 2010. Maybe it will help me be more accountable for them if I know I've put it out there for all the world to see?


1. On being a mother. I want to be an even better one. My children come first to me, they always have and everything else is a very distant second. However, I need to up my patience level. Emma is at that age where she tries my nerves... she questions everything and wants to know "why" all the time about every little thing. Sometimes this is okay, but sometimes I'm busy and Noah's crying and the phone's ringing and I find myself raising my voice to her when I shouldn't. So, more patience with her questions and with Noah's endless exploring.... that's what I need to do better.


2. On my mentality. I hope to rid myself of people who cause drama. I don't enjoy drama and I can't stand it when I feel like I'm put in the middle of some drama that someone else is just trying to stir up. It makes me feel sick to my stomach and makes me want to just disappear in a closet or something. I learned so much about people who I thought were friends of mine last year and really.. they never were, they were just pretending on some level, because in my book, a friend is there for support and love. Not for middle school drama. So, I hope that the drama in my universe is completely non-existent this year.


3. On photography. I just hope to keep growing and learning and improving. It is such a joy for me to do something that I've always loved to do... take pictures. And I hope that I can be successful in the "52 Photowalks" that I'm going to participate in along with some of my wonderful friends who live far away! :)


4. On being a person. I just want to be a better one. I want to try really hard to live in the present and concentrate on striving towards a wonderful future with my family and friends. I would like very much to not have to be constantly reminded of my failures and I would like to also forget the failures of those around me and only live in the now and try to make a better future for myself, my family, and my friends. I am a person who has always very much lived in the past. I have a hard time letting it go for some reason, but I want to try to... not necessarily let my past go, because it's a very important part of who I am, but to try to focus my energy on the present and the future.


5. On sweating the small stuff. and in the words of the author... it's all small stuff. All of it. This was a hard thing for me to accept. But turning thirty did it for me. It made me realize that life is short, folks. I swear, I just turned 21 yesterday, I can still recall the precise details of that night and the hangover the following day, and now I'm about to be 31. Life is just too short to take everything so seriously. Let it go and move on. Nothing is worth sacrificing what your heart truly desires.


And that's all I'm going to share on here for the world to read. I'd love to hear your thoughts and what your personal resolutions for 2010 are going to be. I want this to be my biggest and best year yet of learning and growing, so please, share yours with me! I might just want to borrow some of yours to add to my list. :)